Six Months

"Wait a year."

Tomorrow it will have been six months. Everyone told me wait at least a year before you try to make plans. They were right. At six months I have little enthusiasm for anything. I find myself unable to even figure out what to do each day, much less in the future. Everything I had planned to do involved Kate.
I survived, at least for now, the latest lay offs. This is a good thing because I couldn't afford to retire and really would have hated going and looking for a new job after 22 years at the current one. After the sigh of relief came the depression. I was pretty sure I wouldn't survive these layoffs and was already thinking about taking the summer off before I started looking for a new job. Now instead of that reality I have to, at a minimum for another four years, get up every morning and commute 50 miles to a job I have no interest in except the pay check. Of course my partner for 20 of those years was my Kate. Consequently everything and everybody reminds me of her all day long.
Maybe it'll get better in another six months.

February 28, 2009

Kate's Birthday

Kate would have been 54 today.

I still have a job. I met with my manager on Tuesday, and for now, I'm not being laid off. Obviously he couldn't make any long range promises since the economy is in the toilet and the Socialist Democrats in power seemed determined to flush it away in their rush to convert America into a Socialist Nanny State. Even if I managed to hold on to my job until my intended retirement date, the President and the Congress may have put us so far in debt that no one in the middle class for the next 3 or 4 generations will be able to afford to retire. And if you could retire, with socialized medicine you'll be too sick to enjoy it because liberal government bureaucrats without Medical Degrees will decide what treatment your Doctor can prescribe for you while you wait years for routine surgery performed by overworked and under paid government doctors. Just like the Soviet Union of yesterday and England today. The poor Canadians will no longer have the option to come to the U.S. for surgery because the waiting times and quality of care won't be any better here than they have in the Great White North today. Of course none of these changes will effect the Democrats in power. Just like the Communists in the U.S.S.R., the leaders had the best medical treatment available. There was none of that standing in line and waiting for treatment for the dictators at the top. The Liberal Democrats in Washington today are no different than the Communists in China, Hugo Chavez in Venezuela, the Castro brothers in Cuba or the Soviets of the old U.S.S.R. But this is "Change We Can Believe In!"
To paraphase a bumper sticker...
"I'll take freedom, a tax cut, smaller government, capitalism and my First and Second Amendment Rights - You keep The Change!"